Finally, I get to write about how the most horrific 13 months of my life is over. This is no exaggeration, despite the abuse I’ve suffered in the past I would deem the last year much worse. I, like many others, faced the dreaded appeal process against the DWP’s decision to stop paying my PIP (personal independence payment). Thankfully I won my appeal this month and I’m getting the same rate again. I am thrilled but most of all I am so relieved that its finally over. Waiting for the tribunal was anxiety-inducing and so stressful, it had a hold over my life for so long preventing me from pursuing my goals but at last I can let out a sigh of relief and breathe again.
I don’t want to dwell too much on the actual appeal process in this particular post however, I would like to do a post focused solely on it in the future for others suffering at the hands of Atos, Capita, and the DWP to use as a resource to help them. For this post I would like to remain positive and talk about what I’m going to be doing moving forward from this debacle.
Throughout the duration of this process I’ve had to put a lot of things on hold including my driving lessons and my kyphosis correctional surgery. Partially due to lack of funding, and partially due to how bad of a place I was in mentally. They are two massive parts of my life in their own rights: learning to drive is my gateway to the freedom I crave as someone with agoraphobia, and my surgery is going to relieve me of a physically deformity which has always affected my mental health and self-confidence. Now that I am free of the DWP’s clutches I can finally focus on getting my driver’s licence followed by my surgery. I’m also able to finally continue with my health and social care course. Strictly speaking nothing has been stopping me other than my mental health but an important part of self-care is understanding that its OK to forgive ourselves when we get stuck in a rut. For the first time in a year I can feel the fog in my mind fading and I can finally see clearly. I know what I want to do and how to do it, but now I’m in the right head space to get things done.
Those of you who follow me on Twitter will have seen I’ve also become very passionate about socialism. I won’t pretend to be an expert in politics because I’m not but I’m learning so much as times go by. It all started with the appeal as this caused me to take an interest in the wrongdoings of the DWP which goes hand-in-hand with the Tory government. As I’ve read more and more, and I began watching things like Question Time (BBC One) my eyes have been opened to the destruction the Tories have caused, and its encouraged me to be a part of the conversations and the fight for a British government that will help the many not the few. Most of all I hope we can have a Labour government in the very near future who will fix everything the Tories broke especially the benefit system. I have no doubt my twitter will continue to be filled with political topics however, with the restoration of my blogging schedule underway I will be finding more balance in the future.
My final main focus is my mental health. After the taxing year I’ve had I think its so important that I now take time to care for myself. I had previously been in a relatively good place mentally but the stress caused a huge deterioration in my mental state so I want to work hard on getting back to where I was 13 months ago.
2019 is going to be a big year for me and I’m starting again from now. I’m focused and motivated and filled with so much passion. I really can’t wait to take you guys along for the ride. Thank you for your patience.